For the past few days, from time to time, I would have a sense of guilt come over me when the blog came to mind. I'm pushing day 10 without a post. I really don't know how Judy and Bonnie, in addition to so many others, can do it all. Day after day, two, three, sometimes four posts a day.
I've been fighting a funk. I think much of it has to do with school starting up right around the corner. I've felt some minor anxiety attacks come on; I really don't know what else to call them. School creeps into my mind, and my heart-rate kicks up; I get a slight feeling of nausea. **sigh** I just realllllly want a good year this year. I'm tired of not liking what my perception has become of our school. And honestly, when I talk to other teachers around the nation and hear their stories, I really need to accept the realization that the profession has simply changed all OVER our nation; it's not just isolated to our District. The PRESSURE I feel .... when I think of administration evaluations, admin expectations and directives being handed down to us with little inservice training time.... student evaluations and scores affecting my future.... new texts and new lessons with such little precious preparation time during the day.
I. WILL. SUCCEED. THIS. YEAR. I won't be beat down this year. LOL.
It's quite simple. I don't like anxiety. And that's what I feel right now when school comes to mind.
Guess it's something I need to work on and figure out.
In the meantime, I HAVE been keeping busy behind the lack-of-blogging time.
The "Peaches and Cream" mill-ends baby afghan is complete. 30"x38"
The pattern was a one-row repeat, so very easy.... and quite redundant by the end. @_@
So, this cute little purse caught my eye next....
The pattern did not specify how much yarn was needed, so I took a guess.
NOPERS! Three balls of Aunt Lydia's plum crochet thread size 3 was NOT enough. Therefore, it is being set aside until I get some more.
This is the first time I've used such a small 'yarn.' And I LOVE it for this purse pattern! Can't wait to get a finish out of it.
AND THEN.... Scarf City Central baby.
I have a few more scarfs in the works; all to improve my wardrobe :) Heaven knows, I be needin' some style!
So, there ya have it.
Of course, the garden has also called my name from time to time. Peas and cucumbers mostly so far. However, the past two days, I have avoided the outdoors if/when I could. **sigh** Ragweed has reared its ugly face, and is in full bloom. I picked up my renewed allergy medicine prescription this morning, and I've been reminded this afternoon of the feeling I have during the initial onset of my medicine regimen. Loopy, druggy, and "out of body" feeling.
LOL. I have so many excuses flying around in my head about why I haven't been in the garden as much as I should. Why I haven't been out running like I should. Why I haven't been quilting like I could. Why the house hasn't been cleaned. Why the girls' closets haven't been sorted.
But really..... I'm just in a funk. I don't feel like doing much of anything, except sitting, putting my feet up, and crocheting.
How's that for honesty?
Happy Saturday everyone!