I'm really trying not to be, but.....

I'm tired
I'm cold
The house is a disaster
The pile of dirty clothes has literally grown exponentially over night
The dishes are piled (almost growing exponentially as well)
The quilty deadlines are looming
and I simply have NO motivation to face ANYTHING right now


But bless my husband....
he just warmed up the ricebag and tucked it under my quilt by my feet.

I sure love him

and tomorrow will be another (BETTER) day :0)

What is sanity, after all?

Sanity considered as a legal term denotes that an individual is of sound mind and therefore can bear legal responsibility for his or her actions. A theory of sanity was proposed by Alfred Korzybski : he believed that sanity was tied to the structural fit or lack of it between our reactions to the world and what is actually going on in the world. (definitions courtesy of Wikipedia)

So, as I sit here, trying to get a grasp on everything that has been happening over the past couple of weeks, and all that needs to happen within the next two weeks, I must ask myself "Have I met Korzybski's definition?"

As I ramble on tonight, feel free to tune me out at anytime. There will be no quilting discussed, unless it comes as a by-product of attempting to bring myself back to some solid structure of sanity. The ramblings tonight serve one purpose: to get my mind structured and organized and feeling a bit more confident that things really aren't as bad as what my mind is perceiving things to be.

I have found myself sitting lately, frozen by the feeling of being overwhelmed, and unable to be productive because of these stressful feelings. I know I have a mounting pile of tasks; but I truly am feeling that the mountain is about ready to erupt.
I have had moments of accomplishments, only to find that things have been half-finished; or I've become busy with some other task and left other things sitting, left to be forgotten. ONLY to come back to those "forgotten" things minutes/hours later, and then I am right back to the overwhelmingness feelings. A spiral that is frustratingly NOT coming to an end.

So.....first, my list......WHAT must be done within the next day?
**a moment of panic, because my brain has shut down! It can't prioritize!! Ahhhhhhhhh!**
Okay....breathe, breathe......
Okay----something small and simple: Must have coaches meeting at 7:45 to help Marching Band instructor plan rehearsals in August. Okay...check.
Next, teach 1st hour Web Design (students working on projects, so I should have some time to work on grading their projects). Okay...check. 2nd and 3rd hour bring Algebra and Math 8; both classes will have daily tasks that are already set and established. okay...check. Then....PREP time! Holy buckets---what to do first?!?!??!?! (((***no, no...don't panic---**)))
Okay....

Professional Development Team minutes must be finalized and given to Chair person.

JV Volleyball summer league information needs to be typed up and copies before the 2:50 meeting

Math 8 assessments need to be graded (holy cow! That'll take close to three hours!!! Must find Nikki (student aid) to help me out)

Awards for JH Awards Program need to be made. Okay...well....the program isn't until next Tuesday, so this may need to wait until Thursday's PREP time.

ah yes....one of the most dreaded...make a decision regarding Varsity Badger State tournament: do I support this or not? This has been my most dreaded decision as of lately. I have two girls really pushing the others into signing the "team" up, but.....well, to be matter of fact, there isn't a team yet. Yeah.....there's another "con" about not signing up. (I have been typing up a Pros vs. Cons list of why to or not to sign the "not-really-existent" varsity team up for Badger State Volleyball Tournament at the end of June. Only a handful of solid, varsity players are returning; we lost quite a few athletes to graduation. Of the girls that are potential, no one has stepped foot on a varsity level court, and I bottom-line don't want any ugliness to happen prior to season starting.)) We all know what can happen to a "squad" of girls, that have never played together before, and when two of them feel they "run the show." Ummm....UGH! I just don't like it! By my ramblings here, it seems that I've made my decision already; I do not support the choice of the "team" to compete at Badger State. In addition to any "cat-fights" that could go on, rumors have already been started that some girls have some "not-so-good-for-the-team" intentions (ie: alcoholic drinking). Ugh! JUST NOT what is needed going into a season where every girl has an important part on the court; however, every girl can also be replaceable.

On a somewhat related, but not related note......much needed decision-making and communication is not being handled positively by some staff at the JH level (and even HS level). We are struggling in a few areas simply because communication hasn't been so straight-forward by the administration and/or other parties involved at the school. Summer school is right around the corner; staff have had their student-recommendations in for over a month, but today was the first that we've heard that any action is being taken. I've kind of lost track of other concerns I had in regards to commmunication (lack of communication) because I've simply gone to the mind-set "to each their own" and "fend for yourself." This 2nd attitude has quite possibly put me at the brunt of much "hallway gossip" because I think I've been sticking my nose in to some places it doesn't belong, BUT......Well......THEN COMMUNICATE WITH US ALREADY! (calm....calm....calm down.......)

And then...there's the not-so-prioritized tasks that are so remotely listed at items #29 and #30 that I wonder if I'll ever get to them........the School's website is in need of updates-----tsha! Let's find THAT time, shall we??? And who needs supplies for next school year? I must not because finding time to get some lists together via catalogs isn't even on the radar screen yet. I suppose I could also try to clone myself 5 different times, but sadly I fear that my life would get even crazier (you've all seen Multiplicity right???)

Okay.....so...where does this post leave me?

1) Vented
2) At least a bit more decisive regarding the Badger State Vball tournament
3) confirmed that in order to things to happen, we need the "movers and shakers" of this world.

Well folks, Watch me shake......


final note: no sympathy comments needed---really. I just needed to journal tonight and get some of my thoughts in writing. Tomorrow, I'm sure I'll come back and have some different view-points on things I shared tonight; and I may decide to delete this post altogether for fear that it could be misinterpretted in the wrong hands.....

Happy Tuesday going out to you!

Where to begin......

Holy Buckets! It's Saturday morning! WHERE did this week go????

It started with HAPPY QUILTING Monday, and flew from there......
.......tired Tuesday with only an hour of quilting...
......Wild Wednsesday with no quilting, but lots of volleball
......"Thrilling" Thursday with the family joining me at school from 6:00-8:00 in an attempt to organize & inventory the Volleyball storage
....."Fun" Friday with our school's Game Night where I was asked to referee the "He-Man" volleyball tournament.

So today......will be SEWING SATURDAY! It should also be Soapy Saturday (laundry and dishes!) and Storage Saturday (picking up the week's accumulation of toys in living room), but........can't I wait for all of that until tomorrow? After all, tomorrow is still an "S" day :0)

After spending some time this AM catching up on blogs, I came to realize that Nancy's (Patchwork Penguin) UFO Challenge actually DID have a challenge for January! YIKES! I WILL, I WILL, I WILL catch up on those UFO's, BUT I also have deadlines looming over my head for some of my WIP's. Today, I will work on Double Delight. Graduation will arrive before I know what hit me, and the recipient is TOO SPECIAL to not have this quilt ready. She was just announced as a Co-Valedictorian! Actually, we have THREE Co-Valedictorian's this year, all with 4.0 GPA's. All are females, and all are wonderful students. BUT, even more-so, they all are equally giving to the community, to their school, and all have WONDERFUL morals; patient, honest; none are "clicky"---all treat their classmates with respect. Our Salutatorian is male; great academics and wonderful athlete. I spoke with him yesterday; (it was the first time I had seen him since the announcement), and I asked him about his 3.997 GPA (which basically equates to two A-'s somewhere in his HS career). I loved his response! He said......"*groan* Freshman Civics. I came into HS with the 'I haven't ever needed to study so why start now' attitude and it kicked me in the butt." The reason I loved his response was because I was supervising the 8th grade study hall at the time and it was so GOOD for those 8th graders to hear those words. But then I asked him about his other A-, and he said "Phy Ed." WHAT?!?!??! He merely chuckled and said....."yeah, pretty stupid for me, huh???" Afterall, he IS a top athlete; football, basketball, baseball.

Anyway-----whoa....that last paragraph sure went off on a tangent, huh?
Alrighty then........I'm off!

Andee---better watch out! I may go into overdrive!
OH! AND.........We lose an hour tonight to day light's savings (RIGHT???? I'm not THAT 'out of it', right???? It IS this weekend??)
..... :0( Andee, are you in the timezone that stays the same? Or is that New Mexico? I can never remember. If you don't lose an hour, we'll have to remember that in the long run of things.....
*wink*

Ummm...-test/test?

Having a panic moment here-----my complete blog just POOFED! Nothing showed....

let's try this!

Yes, Carol, I am alive....

I received a lovely "motherly concerned" email today from Carol (Cornfield Quilter) inquiring if all was well with me. Yes, Carol, all is well; just a very busy week. Between working Double-Header basketball games, writing drafts of a Technology Acceptable Use Policy, writing drafts of an 8th grade Retention policy, writing a district-wide Mathematical Processing Rubric, researching and writing a proposal for a SmartBoard purchase, playing league volleyball, spending three hours online and playing phone-tag with another tech-lady in our district trying to debug the web-based grading system the district uses, researching volleyball summer camps and drills, and then all the other "normal" daily mom-things such as dishes, laundry, making dinner, bathing children, cleaning house for visitors............yeah........it's been a busy week! Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday.

My load around school has suddenly just gotten really LOADED! I just can't believe how it's been one thing after another this week. One of the biggest changes being that I have applied for and have been the "acting" Head Volleyball coach for the past month. Our AD (athletic director) approached me quite a while ago, and many times since then, inquiring if I would take the position. I coached for 8 years as the Assistant Vball coach under a WONDERFUL lady; but when Candace was born, I turned my resignation in; and the Head Coach did as well. Watching the program over the past three years dwindle has been difficult, and.....long story short, the administration did not ask this season's coach back due to ..... well..... a few things. So, the night of the Sectional Final game way back in October, I knew I needed to get back in. That game was amazing! And I want our district's program to be just that-----a DISTRICT program and not just a VARSITY program. So.......once I voiced this to our AD, he essentially said it was mine, but "official procedure" needed to be followed. The administration posted the "in-house" memo last week and I submitted my letter of application. Together with the AD, we have been finalizing the schedule for next year's season and I've been trying to get all the inventory organized. *shaking head* What a minor disaster. One thing I DO admit and take quite a bit of pride in is my organizational skills and "anal-ness" towards statistics, etc. *shaking head still*....oh dear, oh dear, oh dear..... Trying to make sense of the "stuff" I've found from the past three years has been quite "interesting." Budget looks scary for sure! No new balls have been purchased so I foresee ALL of next year's budget going to new balls, which really can't happen, because new knee pads and shorts also need to be purchased. Not to mention little odds-n-ends for safety and injury issues.......*heavy sigh*.

BUT.....I'm optimistic and up to the challenge. The two assistant coaches are wonderful and are OVERLY excited to be working "under me" even though I've told them we will be working "along side" each other. They are co-workers and had a stressful season this year so they are also VERY optimistic for the "new and improved" coaching staff.


On the Quilting front-----(YES, there has been SOME quilting amongst all this hecticity!)....I have completely finished the Oklahoma Backroads top. It will be a nice and full throw/lap quilt, roughly 68"x84". WOW----I didn't realize it was that big until I just looked at the pic to calculate the size.

Bernina update: I was informed on Monday that she was ready. No major damage; just some realignment of the needle-housing and then I also requested a "tune-up." Thankfully.....no severe wallet damage! Whew! My babysitter, who is also my student-aide, is going on a college visit tomorrow. She will be traveling through the town where the shop is, so she will be doing me a BIG favor by picking it up on her way and dropping it off. How lovely!

My DH's brother and family will be visiting us this weekend. DH and BIL will be working on the plumbing of the downstairs bathroom; I guess DH is finally ready to start working on the basement to get it a bit more "functional."
I was hoping to get some quilting done, but I may find myself being more of a hostess instead; at least until they leave on Sunday. Many of the Quiltville followers are doing the StripTwist Superbowl quilting; I had planned on doing this also, BUT have now decided not to. Just too many other projects that have more priority. There is only so much time in a day and week.

So, one more time.....Yes, Carol, I am alive :0) Thank you very much for being concerned and sending such a touching email. Even my husband was surprised and "happy" that there are concerned individuals "out there." :0)

Happy Thursday

1000 apologies!

My goodness golly! No genuine excuses here other than simple "different priorities" over the past two weeks.

I AM sorry that my postings (and checking in on others' postings, for that matter) have been so non-existing over the past two weeks. My followers know that LAST week it was due to my obsession with Stephanie Meyer's Twilight saga; this week---well, it's PART due to Twilight (a sorta-kinda 5th book posted on her site) AND new book "my girls" have recommended (The Hunger Games) which I'm still not so sure about----I'm only a chapter into it. AND then on top of all of that, I HAVE been faithful to a certain extent towards my C'mas project responsibilities AND I have also needed to take two evenings to put a "rough draft" of a quilting class together since my school's Community Education Coordinator wants me to teach one and the deadline for brochure printing is Monday. SO----I needed to put a top together to have a sample photo, AND to get an idea of how many sessions/duration of each session will be needed.

So----my evenings have usually ended around 11:00 - 12:00 the past two weeks, and I just haven't been putting "blogging" in the top 5 "things-to-do" lately. Please forgive me---I WILL be checking in with everyone tomorrow night for sure! I'm making it a date!!!!

Oh!!!! Speaking of date!
My husband is taking me out tonight to dinner and a movie.
alright, alright---so I kinda TOLD him he was----he didn't really ask

What movie, you ask????? *chuckle*
AS IF you need to ask!!!

*nod-nod*
Yup....."Twilight" again, now that it's in the theater in OUR town (tiny little blip on a map, so we never get the big movies until a couple of weeks after debut). Yeah---I went to the movie last weekend with my babysitter, traveling down to a city 30 miles away, paying $7.75 per person. Our theater only charges $6.00, and I suppose it's only fair ????

Anyway----so I am off to pick up the babysitter. We have a new girl (sweet little Freshman) lined up tonight; not old enough to drive, so....... Cassie is excited to "meet someone new"; the other two don't really know what to think. They don't understand why Nikki (normal babysitter) isn't coming........


Happy Friday!

Thy shall not pity me....

*chuckling*
HUGE hugs going out to my faithful followers for their supportive comments on the last two posts. I appreciate the "permission" to kick back, but I must admit, I was playing into the classic "victim" mentality and am mature enough to realize that (unlike some of my students.) Although I realize life is NOT "all that bad," I still am fighting an amount of lack of energy, minor depression, and just NO motivation!! I am procrastinating with too many things, and the world just seems to be closing around me because of that procrastination. The house is in constant chaos, and rather than DO SOMETHING about it, I put it off and put it off, untill.....()#*$)(#*^E(*@&#(*&@^$(* I EXPLODE!

And seriously! I have a new hypothesis for my latest "BLAH" feelings. I have not been eating anything REMOTELY "decent," NOR have I run in almost 2 weeks. I suppose I could do some research based on one participant (me);
Hypothesis: Nutritious diet and regular exercise promotes lack of fatigue and an increase of "warm & yummy" feelings.
*chuckle*
(okay, I don't know if warm & yummy are very scientific)
BUT, in order to collect some data, I FIRST have to get MOTIVATED again to get my lazy butt on the Dreadmill (dark & cold outside---ewwww: NOT my best combination for running). I also have to RID the house of all that Halloween candy. GOSH! I've consumed so much junk and sugar......ugh!

So........here I sit, having graded at least SOME of my papers tonight, but.......*sigh*....the dishes sit for yet another evening, the laundry still awaits in the entry-way, growing more massive day by day. Can't it be summer again???? Gosh----winter clothing doesn't take long to pile up rather large!

DH will be heading up to the Farm this weekend with Caitlyn and Candace. I will be staying home with Cassie, heading to the school's PTA Carnival tomorrow night. I would do ANYTHING if Cass could be motivated enough to pick up the loft area on Saturday---I wonder what I could bribe her with. Saturday evening, we're thinking of heading to the Football game---(our boys are 2 games away from heading to the State Championship game.) And, of course, there's other house work to be done, trying to tackle that mountain (LITERALLY) of laundry, and sewing projects too. PLUS prepare for Monday's new quarter at school; new students; new classes.....*sigh*

Okay, okay.......*self-talk*......try not to get overwhelmed! Just one thing at time.....one thing at a time.....

*sigh*
Thy shall not pity me.... We all (sadly) reach this moment at one time in our lives....

"this too shall pass."
(just not soon enough)

*sigh* wishing for an end...

...to the constant feeling of endless laundry, housecleaning, school work, bills, cooking, "disciplining" ....... *sigh*....and so on and so forth...

RIGHT when I think I get caught up, I turn around, and THERE SOMETHING ELSE IS! Seriously! *sigh*...... when do we ever get "ahead?"

I'm at least trying to kick back right now, watching the Saturday Night Live (SNL) Presidential Bash of '08 (and toggling between Monday night football, too). I'm also out surfing .....for nothing really ....just surfing and catching up on blogs.

Alright---I seriously think I'm off to bed........

Happy Monday

It's Friday tomorrow?!??!? ALREADY?????

yup...it's been one of those crazy hectic weeks where time has simply FLOWN by. Seriously, if time keeps going like this, my kids will all be graduated, and I'll be a retired grandmother in no time!!!!! *chuckle*

Blogger is a bit slow tonight for me for some reason, so I'm not going to bother with pics right now. It's almost bedtime for the girls; we're relaxing with some fish crackers as a snack and watching the Backyardigans on Noggin. I love the music on this show :0)

I found a few moments last night to get downstairs----didn't really know what I wanted to work on, but ended up cutting some borders for Andre's Out of this World. Hopefully I'll finish that top tonight by putting the final borders on once the girls are tucked away in bed. I've already written my Pre-Calculus test and key for tomorrow, so my official work is finished for the night. Now I have "play" work time :0)

Maybe I'll tune back in later tonight with an updated pic of the completed top :0)

Crazy morning and NASTY weather!

UGH! Bad weather moved in late last night--several tornados all the way from Kansas area all the way up to us in Wisconsin. The short version: I woke at 1:50 with a HUGE clap of thunder; and ABSOLUTELY could not get back to sleep---the wind was howling something FIERCE! The house was creaking, swaying, and all the scary stuff that goes along with gusty winds! I was up out of bed by 2:05, and THANKFULLY DH awoke with my movement. He and I searched radio station after radio station, but no live DJ's on with up-to-minute weather. We tried the TV, but satellite was out. He then came up with the BRILLIANT idea to try online. Thankfully, phone lines were good-to-go, so we kept an eye on the motion-radar for the next 30 minutes or so. Finally, around 3:20, it appeared that the worst was beyond us, so we ventured back to bed. That was the worst weather we've had in a LONG time. Just too scary for me---really. I was scared for the girls whose rooms are all on the upper level of our "loft-cabin-style" house. I ALMOST went up at one point to grab them and head to the basement. I really should have----I'm just thankful things turned out okay.
Unfortunately, this wasn't the case for some towns along the entire line of storms. I can't even imagine what it must be like to go through a clean-up after a storm!

So, with very little sleep, I was up a bit earlier than normal because I needed to get all under way in order to get to my 8:30 dentist appt. So, the plan was to drop the kids off early at summer school. (8:00 instead of 8:30.) After dropping them off, I needed to take a quick stop at my school-year daycare lady to drop of the littlest one; and then I was to be off for the dentist.

Yeah, well.....with the storm, power was out all OVER the place. (except us---we missed that one.)
BUT, when I pulled into the school parking lot, the Head-lady was outside informing us school needed to be cancelled today because of a power outage! Aghhhhh! Panic mode! 30 minutes to appt time---what to do? what to do? So, I at least headed off to the daycare and crossed my fingers that she had 2 additional openings to cover the older girls.
Pulled into the driveway, and my lovely lady was on the walkway, escorting another mom and child out to the car. SHE WAS CLOSED! AGHHHHH! She didn't have power, either, so we was closing for the day! Oh Dear!!!! 23 minutes to appt---what to do---what to do. I could call babysitter, but she starts her summer job at 9:00, so she wouldn't be available. So THANKFULLY I remembered my cell phone today (I have a BAD habit of forgetting it on the counter at home), and I called DH. Some little angel was at least prepared for this fiasco today, because he was still at home. He works construction, so the crew was going to postpone the start time today until NOON! Heaven bless me! So....back off to home I went.....dropped off the girls, took out the car seats because DH had some errands to run for work, and off to the dentist with 10 minutes to go until appt. At 8:32, I pulled into the Dentist's parking lot------whew!

The appt didn't go too bad. I absolutely HATE the dentist. I had terrible "luck" with them as a child---cavities, cavities, cavities! And, ever since the one time way back when, when I wasn't quite "numb" enough and the drill caught a nerve....(SHUDDERING at the memory), I have been VERY apprehensive when that blasted drill starts whizzing away! ICK! UGH! OW! But, I've had a new dentist since last summer, and he is SOOOOO nice, friendly, and explains EVERYTHING as he's working. PLUS, his office is so high-tech---we can listen to music via Syrus (sp?) satellite radio---any station of my choice--while he's working. Today, a temporary crown was put in place; molds taken of my teeth, and I'll be back in 3 weeks to get my permanent crown. The plan for next summer: (SHUDDDDDDER AGAIN)----wisdom teeth need to some out. ICK! UGH! OW! Too many nightmare stories heard about THAT ordeal!!!!! (sigh)

So, now I'm home---DH just got back and brought me lunch, so I'm off to eat with a still-numb-mouth.
Then, I'm anticipating an afternoon of ironing and sewing.

WHERE did the weekend go?

*sigh*
*slumping into chair*
*kicking up feet*

No pictures tonight---to tired to mess with downloading.

Yesterday's schedule:
Woke at 7:15; breakfast, shower, "groom" myself and Cassie; do a few loads of laundry, wash dishes, pick up house; headed to the Twin Cities at 10:00. Arrive at Twin Cities at 12:15; ate a little lunch with Julie and her family (see previous post for an introduction of Julie). 1:00; headed to Graduation ceremony. The ceremony was a bit long, with one extremely boring speaker, but tolerable. One thousand ten graduates crossed the platform; whew! It took 1 hour and 20 minutes to recite everyone's name as they crossed. So 4:30, ceremony was over. Headed back to Julie's for some munchies; said bye to her family; and headed off to the Mall of America, since all Zoo's were closing at 5:00. We took Cass on a rollercoaser (her FIRST); hung out for a couple of hours, and headed home at 8:30pm . Arrived home at 11:00 pm, and fell into bed with Cass.
No quilting Saturday.

Today's schedule:
Woke at 6:28; breakfast and cartoons. Started grading test papers at 7:00; stayed on top of keeping the laundry machine loaded; finished the last bit of "homework" at 9:10. Threw bed linens into washing machine, loaded dishwasher and hand washed other dishes. At 10:15, upstairs to pick up the loft area and the girls' bedrooms. At 11:00, outside to plant a quarter of the garden. At 12:15, inside to make lunch. 12:45, downstairs to complete sewing the Stars-n-Stripes rows together and started putting on borders. 1:30, upstairs to check on Candace, and fell asleep next to her. (YEAH!!!!!, But WHY do I feel guilty about that?!?!?!) 2:15, woke and made a snack for Caitlyn and Cassie; back outside to plant two more rows of corns. 3:00, afternoon "lunch" for Paul who just came home from his job-site, hauling wood. 3:45, loaded the truck with entire family, and went to Dad's job site to help him haul the next load. 4:00-7:00; cut and carried wood to trailer. 7:20, dropped off back at home; made supper for girls. 8:00, rush-readied the girls for bed, 8:15 tucked in. 8:25; pulled bed linens from the dryer and made bed. 8:35; laid on bed, SOOO tempted to just go to sleep. 8:50, shushed Paul off to the shower (Peee-Uuuuu!) and logged on to Internet. 9:10---current time.

Good night everyone! I'm tired, don't mean to whine, but I'm bummmmed I wasn't able to put more time into quilting this weekend. *sigh*

I do have darling photos from yesterday, and will HOPEFULLY be certain to get those up tomorrow.

Where DID this weekend go?!?!??

Staying afloat...somehow

Whew! What DAY is it today?!?!?
It's been crazy and chaotic this week, and FINALLY I have chance to breathe...

I'm not even going to BOTHER trying to recap the past few days; it's been a complete whirlwind.

But, amazingly, I was able to complete OC#3 and catch myself up! I even incorporated some of the new scraps purchased over the weekend.






I also have been slowly cutting up the "Grandpa PJ's" (burgandies, white and blue) I bought this weekend. In a few free moments, I did some surfing on the net to find the "perfect pattern" for the fabrics. Golly! That was tough! At first I didn't find anything. But then, after another hour, I had four possibilities, and I couldn't decide! My choices were a simple Ohio Star block.........
.....and whatever this block to the right is called :0)






...and then I found this quilt, and liked the layout. It would be very easy to make in reds, white, and blues.


But I finally decided on a design by Quick Quilts: "Stars and Stripes Forever"
Last night, I actually put an hour's worth of time into cutting some strips and piecing two log cabin blocks for the pattern. I hope to put some hours in later tonight, too...
....
But FIRST, I have a handful of Algebra tests to grade. I WILL keep that top priority! :0)